Small problem... big set back.

So I am a little down about the whole project today. I have learned lot through this and I am still learning about myself and what I need to become. So in the ongoing metaphor of PK as my internal rebuild that I have been going through for the past year...I have hit a major setback. As you can see in the photo something went wrong. I Took it out into the street and started it up and depressed the clutch and when i selected the gear (normally you would slowly let out the clutch lever and it would slide into gear) I didnt even release any pressure off of the clutch lever and it jumped into gear. The clutch would not disengage and the brake could only slow it down and not stop it from crashing into the back of my friends truck.
This comes at a time for me personally where I am having to deal with alot of internal situations that I originally got PK to work along side of the things I was fixing in myself. I however ended up concentrating more on PK than myself. So I think I dervered this in some round about way and I am learning that my personal restoration is not going to be in my timing but Gods and that it will be humbling at parts and triumphant at times but I cant give up. I tried to set deadlines and expectations that I now know are crippling. Anyhow I am going to take some time away from the vespa, and get the focus back where it should be and when the time is right I will finish PK. This is really tough for me however. It is all I can think about sometimes is getting it finished and getting it our of looking so painful. But if I start on it now I will get obsessed with it again and I will have not put into practice what I am learning.